Baby, Be Easy.

I spent the morning in a bad mood, crying about my future and life and whatnot. I don’t even know what got me going. Then I went to universal knights at about 530, where they close down the theme park for ucf students for free. Rode the hulk and dueling dragons rollercoasters, had some butterbeer in harry potter world. Stayed til about 1030 (it was rainy), and then when I was driving out I broke (braked?) at a red light and skidded a bit into a girls Honda civic. Everything’s alright but her car bumper got a little crack in it.
I’m just glad to be home safe and sound. Now time to study for genetics 30 minutes and then bed!
Genetics final/last test tomorrow.
Night!

-Go to Australia and New Zealand

-Ride in a hot air balloon

- Learn to pilot a hot air balloon myself

-Explore the places in America I haven’t yet (Heck, even my own state of Florida and its hidden gems)  

I get to see my baby tonight, baby tonight, baby tonight!
Tried to make that into a song but it didn’t work haha. But anyway, this girl right heeyah gets to get the fuck out of Orlando and go back home to South FL to see my bee. Not to mention, I’ll be seeing Man Overboard and the whole lot of the Suppy nation tour this Saturday at the talent farm. Should be a hella exciting/relaxing weekend.

P.S. Elena’s mom invited me for brunch on Easter Sunday at the tiki hut down at the marina. I love that her parents are coming around to me and their daughters happiness. It’s a great feeling and I’m sure Elena feels more relieved.

I miss everyday lazing around with my boo. When she would lift my shirt and snuggle against me skin-to-skin cause she thought I was the warmest thing. 

How when we drove we held hands, I would rub my thumb on her hand when I felt extra lovey. She would ask for a kiss and of course I wouldn’t deny her, so I’d kiss her and swerve a little. Every little swerve was worth it for her. 

I miss her constant presence in my life. 

Friday come sooner, please. Spring break, arrive swiftly and linger much longer than you’ll arrive.

I’ve never loved something or someone as much as you

I have longed for the past but now you are my past, present, and future.

Now I long to get lost in your blue eyes, oh god, I could get lost in them for years and people would wonder where I went off to.

And I’d tell them, I’d tell the whole world, I was exactly where I’ve always wanted to be. 

I tried LSD for the first time today.

Did it with my friend Zoe. 

Well, it was fun and crazy and whoa.

We went outside and were really giggly at first, the trees and everything were so nice, eating candy canes and laughing. 

We actually walked to campus like crazy bitches and were freaking out once there because there were so many cops and old people for graduation. We walked really far but everything was really pretty. I had many revelations. haha. but when we got back to Zoe’s I was really trippin shit. I think I had a bad trip and had anxiety. I just wanted to feel normal again, I even fucking cried x) But then that feeling subsided and i felt good and still trippy but not too much. 

I wish I could explain my whole trip and everything while its still fresh. Alas, I cannot. I still feel different and kind of crazy right now but I need to get to sleep if I can because tomorrow I’m heading down home to West Palm Beach and then I’ll get to see my baby <3

Night! :)

I mean, I’m usually a happy kid. 

But I’ve been very happy lately.

I’m way more open with my sexuality and I don’t care what people think about it.

I have a beautiful girlfriend ( We’ve been together 1 year and 10 months today). Despite the fact that we’re 2 hours away and don’t get to be with eachother as often as before, I know that I’m on the right track for my future and our future. We had a FaceTime date tonight <3

I’m getting more fit and healthy, it feels great.

I have so much work and studying to do for school but I know I can work through it with dedication. 

These happy moments make me glad to be alive and I need a way to just hold onto feelings like this. 

I updated my info on facebook and changed:

- My relationship status (previously stated as single so people wouldn’t ask)

- My “interested in” section

also, I updated my status as,

“My girlfriend is coming to visit me tonight, heck yesss :D”

but everything is excluding my family list from seeing it x) since I’m only out to my immediate family (Mom, Dad, Brother and my parents significant others) and not my extended family. I’m just not ready for that yet. We’re catholic as fuck, although maybe my cousins wouldn’t mind.. 

But that’s basically like coming out to the rest of the friends I never really see anymore like from high school and such and now any new friends I add :D It’s extremely liberating. People are already liking the status on facebook, I wonder if they’re like “finalllyy!” or ” I knew it” or “cooool”. haha.

I’m coming to the acceptance part that I know that most people do not mind, and if they do, who needs them. My roommates took it well, I was nervous before telling them. So I think that has played a part in it too. People in general have responded well in my coming out.